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[It's very, very early morning when the video flicks on. Displaying someone who really should still have been asleep. But he's smiling, and pans the camera over to where one of the purple alien cats has apparently, in true cat fashion, decided Shiro's bedroll is its new bed, and no one else's.]

Finally got him to stick around long enough for a nap. [He's speaking in an undertone, and fondly, too.] He'll probably wander off after he wakes up, but...

Maybe we can get him to help with the hunting around here.

[A pause.] At least, I've been calling him... him.

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.......Soooo, does that mean the robot lion is up for grabs?

[There is some small, squashed part of Shiro that would honestly love to see what would happen if Darin tried to "ride" the Black Lion.]

[But that would just be cruel.]

No. It's not. Because no one is riding this one. And the Black Lion isn't even here.

Okay, I hear what you're saying...

But

What if...

It was.

Dibs on Black Lion.

That's. Not even remotely how this works.

Dibs.

On Black Lion.

You can't call dibs on the Lions.

That's not how it works!

[ALLURA WHERE ARE YOU. HELP.]

What, are you going to tell me something like 'The Lions choose their rider' and that something like 'Destiny' is at the wheel here?

PPPHHHHTTTBBBBBBBBB

[He makes grabby hands at the camera]

Destiny's lame. I'm a natural born Master of the Universe. Keys please.

Pilot. There's no... riding going on. They're machines.

[Vaguely sentient, magical machines, but still.]

And yeah, apparently, they do.

It's not even here so I don't know why you're pushing this.

You say 'tomato' I say 'I wanna drive the lion.'

Destiny is a load of crap. Let me tell you why I have issues with Destiny.

First issue:

It's stupid.

Second issue:

Destiny doesn't consult with anyone other than itself. If it did, it would probably make less stupid decisions.

Long story short:

Destiny can bite me because all its done is screw up my life and also make it so I can't pilot a damn lion.

And I'm pushing this, Shiro, because I am bored and I ran out of magic water that made me feel better.

I'm not talking about alcohol, but that's gone too. I'm talking about the stuff from the lake that made me feel like my usual self and not all weak and tired.

Edited 2017-01-04 23:59 (UTC)

So you're talking about taking over the Black Lion. Which isn't even present in this galaxy. Which also means you lead an entire team. And every decision falls on your head. Especially when people end up hurt or captured.

Because you're bored.

And don't like being told 'no'.

Edited 2017-01-05 05:26 (UTC)

Y....es?

I'm just talking about getting to pilot the lion, that's all. Not the connotations.

I'm just having some fun with you, Shiro. Relax.

And I'm saying you don't get one without the other.

I didn't.

Look, it's... a touchy subject, okay?

Listen...I'm sorry if it's a touchy subject.

I get it. The whole...shared responsibility, the lives of people in your hands. I understand it.

...Probably better than you realize.

I believe you.

But it's something I take very seriously. Just... for future reference.

[Shiro you tried to fucking form Voltron with a robot lion pyramid. Come on man.]

Doesn't it drive you insane though?

I mean, you know the old saying 'there's a time and place for that kind of behavior?' Doesn't that sorta go both ways?

I mean, if I let everything I had on my shoulders constantly weigh on me, I'd have killed myself years ago.

I mean...at least you've got friends here. Pidge and the Princess. They care. We all do.

I guess...I'm just saying that I like the pun spouting Shiro. Not the that dutiful Shiro is all bad but...

...Man, forget it. I'm bad at this.

Just because I have responsibilities doesn't mean I don't like bad jokes. But... the time and place is always. For me.

If I slack off, someone else could be hurt.

... you're not that bad.

Come on...you really think I'd let someone get hurt?

I may cause trouble but...it's only because I'm confident I can handle anything that comes my--

...Wait. That's it. That's why you're so serious. You're scared of not being prepared for what could happen next!

That's not what I meant. I didn't mean you'd let it happen... But sometimes it happens anyway. Even when you try your best.

[He'd know. Wouldn't he? The whole team would know. And Allura...]

... I wouldn't say scared. Concerned.

No, you're scared. You're scared because all eyes are on you. You've been put into a position that you're not convinced you're ready for, you're not even sure what it is you're supposed to or meant to do, and everyone just expects you to keep on keepin' on when you'd much rather lock yourself in your room and scream into your pillow until you lose your voice.

I know this because I used to be like that all the time.

[He's still like that. He just hides it incredibly well.]

You should have seen me as a kid, Shiro. I was scared of my own shadow. I barely spoke two words to anyone.

...

None of us can afford to have me being afraid.

[Like closing a door. Maybe there's truth there, but he sure as hell can't show it right now. Not when they're abandoned and shipless on a world with few resources. Now he has to be the Black Paladin. He can't be the Pilot. The Space Enthusiast.]

[So he gently, quietly, makes an attempt to shut down that line of conversation.]

[Because if he screamed, he has the feeling he wouldn't ever stop.]

I'm sorry you felt that way. That something made you feel that way. Your friends here are with you, if you need them.

Lucio is very... very good at that.

[Yeah he saw you bantering with the frog.]

Yeah...he is.

Look, all I'll say is this:

There's nothing wrong with being afraid. Honestly, knowing someone else is afraid with you makes the situation seem a lot less scary. We're all in this together.

...You're probably the first friend I've ever had. You and Lucio.

If anything tried to hurt you guys...[He'd split the earth and tear the sky down]

If anything brought you guys to your knees I'd be the first one there holding you up.

And I appreciate it.

[They're trite words, but. There's a wealth of sentiment behind them. Sure it's short and simple, but he means it. Completely.]

... Just know I don't exactly talk about things like that. [He can't.] It's not just you.

All right?

Yeah.

[It's an uncharacteristically short response, and his voice sounds like it's miles away.]

Trust me. I know exactly what you mean.

I know what it's like to--...

...I get it.

Sorry.

Hey --

There's nothing to be sorry about. I'm not mad about that.

I know you're not.

You're too good of a man to let something like that piss you off.

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