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[The following is actually a series of three separate posts to the network; all three are posted in fairly quick succession, likely before anyone can reply to the first two, though they are open to comments.]

how do you make it so not everyone can read one of these things

[like thirty seconds later]

oh

[a couple of minutes later LOCKED FROM CERTAIN PEOPLE NAMED ELENA FISHER]

so a bunch of people use this system to pour their hearts out and get other people to do the same which usually seems weird to me. i mean just because you say it over the mid doesn't mean you won't run into people later and make it really weird and awkward. i don't know maybe that's just me.

except what the hell i'm pretty drunk right now so why the fuck not!

RIDDLE ME THIS, CREWMATES. pretend for a minute that you're a complete asshole who somehow got the most amazing woman in the world to marry you, fucked it up real fast like dropped a grenade on it bad BECAUSE you're a complete asshole, got her to take you back and start over and then fucked it up again.

what do you do? asking for a friend.

also the first person to make a suggestion that actually works can have some of my alcohol stash. everyone else can fuck off i'm not sharing.

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[OPTION 1: DRUNK. Nate is pretty toasted as he wanders around the ship, but not so much than he has trouble getting around with just an occasional stumble. Alcohol tends to loosen his lips, so he'll gladly (well, not he's not real glad about anything right now) talk to anyone who makes the poor life decision to talk to him first.

[OPTION 2: DRUNKER. Jeez, he's getting to be a real mess now. Nate makes a trip to where the Mess Hall used to be so he can pour one out in honor of the lost bar. What a hideous waste of alcohol. Afterward, he visits the observation deck to drunkenly look at the stars, and will stay there.

[OPTION 3: DRUNKEST. Oh god he's so unhappy. Look at this complete wreck of a man who's making the observation deck a pretty unpleasant place to be. He is completely wasted. (Existing CR only for this option please—basically, if they've had at least one conversation, you're good.)]

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Hey there, Nate. I have zero suggestions for you because what do I know about marriage of all things.

But can I have some of your stash anyway?

[C'mon bro.]

chloe! my favorite hell on wheels. i will totally save you a bottle but fair warning, not one of the small and/or big ones. mostly because those are gone already.

Could've saved me a big one, mate.

[But that's alright, she'll forgive him.]

So... trouble in paradise?

you really dodged a bullet with me, you know that? i mean not that i think we would have ended up in the same place, you're not really one for the domestic life, but seriously it's a good thing we split up when we did, because i'm really good at fucking things up for everyone i care about. you were smart to get out of the blast radius.

[So, that's a yes.]

If you recall, I didn't so much as get out of the blast radius as I was... rejected out of it.

[There are no hard feelings, of course. She just doesn't want credit where it isn't due. Had Nate actually chosen Chloe, she would not have dodged that bullet.]

Whatever it is, it can't be that bad.

i guess that depends on your point of view

[He hadn't seen choosing to try to help Elena and Jeff as rejecting Chloe, and it was the gun she'd pulled on him that had signaled their breakup, in his eyes. Then again, he also hadn't thought he was still in love with Elena, and that had turned out to be very much the case.

Water under the bridge now. Booze under the bridge too.]

i don't know on a scale of 1-10 how would you rate leaving her, convincing her to take me back and then proving she shouldn't have bothered trusting me because i'm an emotional wreck who can't communicate

Yeah, I guess it does.

[Her point of view might be different from his on that matter, but it always was. She needed someone she could rely on. Count on. At the time, he wasn't that person. And if he expected her to go down in flames with him, then he didn't know her very well. At least until she changed her mind in Shangri-la, anyway.

As for the other stuff.]

God Nate, get your shit together. Elena has more balls than you do. And more sense, too. Just tell her. Whatever it is you're feeling, lay it out there. I'm no expert in the whole relationships thing, but I know keeping secrets doesn't keep relationships.

[That pulls Nate up short, sort of. He's still drunk and still curled up in a metaphoric blanket of self-pity and recrimination, but there's not a thing Chloe just said that isn't true.]

it's not about keeping secrets i just don't
some things i can't talk about

but
yeah
you're not wrong
especially about the balls

Edited 2016-07-18 16:24 (UTC)

That's sort of the definition of keeping things secret.

If you really love her and she really loves you, then there isn't anything you can't talk about.

Otherwise, I don't know what business you have getting married. So man up and just talk to her.

it's not that simple
i wasn't hiding stuff i just never brought certain things up and
fuck
can you stop being right
it's really irritating

And she found out about it? She probably finds out everything eventually.

she does but
not this time
not exactly

Jesus, Nate. Stop holding back and just spit it out, whatever it is.

chloe you are my friend and i hold you in the highest regard so don't take this the wrong way
but if i can't talk to my wife about this it's not something i want to talk about with you either
besides
i didn't go on a bender because she discovered my deep dark secret past mainly because i don't have one
i went on a bender because getting in a fight about it just proved she doesn't actually trust me again
and after the shit i pulled going after drake's mystery honestly she probably shouldn't

[like ten seconds later]

shit i'm sorry i shouldn't be dumping this on you
but in vino whatever i guess

Well then maybe next time don't dump on the network. Jackass.

yeah
i think that's probably a very good idea
sorry again

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