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Agent Washington ([personal profile] hatesimprovising) wrote in [community profile] thisavrou2016-05-10 05:13 pm

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[ This is a hard post to make. Even as he turns the MID camera on, he's still wondering if he should really do this. It's close to being too late to back out, but not quite there yet. He can still shut the camera back off and pretend like he never even tried to talk to the network.

But he could really use some help. That's something he can't deny. And in a place like this, with people from all sorts of very different places, it's possible that someone might be able to do something for him, even if it's just to give him some tips. Considering the mess that Epsilon left behind in his head has been stressing him out beyond belief and affecting his daily life in a number of awful ways... Wash figures it's worth a shot. Maybe.

There's a long pause at the beginning of the broadcast, Wash just sitting there in frame, eyes darting back and forth from the camera to some place off to the side. He looks unnerved, uncomfortable, and exhausted. There are bags under his eyes that have been there for weeks now, his hair a bit ruffled, and his uniform just a little askew. ]


Hi. Uh. [ Shuffling in his seat. ] I have a question that might be a little...weird. And I thought it might be useful to get responses from various sources.

[ Different people might have different thoughts, and some might even have some advice so... Here goes... ]

Does anyone know a way to forget something? Or several things? Like, if you have some awful memory that you want to stop looking back on or one that's affecting your mental health? Even if there's some way to just suppress it if you can't get rid of it entirely...

I know it's not a healthy option. You're supposed to learn how to deal with them over time and eventually be at peace with it. But maybe sometimes that's not really an option.

[ He has no intention of adding more detail than that, not even any actual context. Talking about this is difficult and personal as it is, he really doesn't have any interest in talking about his bizarre problems in public, over the network. ]

It's probably not possible, and I get that. But I thought that with some of the things that are possible in some universes, it might be useful to check.

[ Hastily: ] --I'm asking for a friend.

[ YEAH, TOTALLY FOR A FRIEND... So maybe he chickened out a bit at the end there, whatever...!! ]
t65: (yoda owes me money)

[personal profile] t65 2016-05-11 03:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[Luke thinks about how to answer this-- or if he even should-- for a good long time. Of course, none of that comes across in his delivery.]

Why can't you...r friend come to terms with it?
t65: (yes yoda i know)

[personal profile] t65 2016-05-12 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
Oh. [That really clears something up.] I might be able to help. Or-- actually, someone else might be better at it. Have you met Ben Kenobi?

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[personal profile] seeingscarlet 2016-05-11 04:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[Wanda almost doesn't answer. Almost.]

There might be things I could do, but you will have to be more specific.
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[personal profile] seeingscarlet 2016-05-14 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
I need to know what happened to you, how it's affecting you now.

[She's not buying that 'asking for a friend' thing for a minute, by the way.]

Minds are...complicated.

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[personal profile] realitywarped 2016-05-12 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, there's no doubt a great many out there. I could most likely do it, albeit at a potential risk to myself. But even if you can never learn to deal with them, no matter how horrifying those memories are- give them up, and perhaps you give up part of yourself too. Is it worth that cost to you?

[He shrugs. He has a whole lifetime of memories he could forget, but they're Loki's memories, and giving them up would feel awfully like giving up. Even if, sometimes, he wakes up frantically feeling for non-existent stitches through his lips.]

Or, no doubt, someone could probably take the edge off. Dull the memory, not remove it. I'd not recommend suppressing it, however. Things like that tend to come back at the most inconvenient time, worse than before.
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[personal profile] realitywarped 2016-05-23 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Beieve it or not, you're not the only one with someone else's memories, although at least mine are mostly in flashes and nightmares.

[Oddly, Loki knows an awful lot about having a head full of memories that aren't quite his- although it's more complicated in his case, because they also are his, and he's pretending they aren't. Being a god, one living a very large lie, gets complicated sometimes. It's enough, at least, to give him some sympathy for the situation.]

But having them is a memory in itself, yes? Whatever you were before the memories were given to you, you can't be again unless you erase that part of you completely. A kind of mental suicide, I think.

[Loki is Loki, memories and all, and he doesn't want to lose or erase anything yet. At least having the memories reminds him of all the mistakes he knows he doesn't want to make in this life.]

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[personal profile] ventifact 2016-05-12 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
have someone hit you in the head really, really hard
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[personal profile] ventifact 2016-05-12 08:56 pm (UTC)(link)
no because it makes sense
probably
you might forget something else instead

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[personal profile] a_shadow 2016-05-12 02:21 pm (UTC)(link)
You can't help Epsilon from here.

I can only assume he's your 'friend' you're talking about.


[ Yeah, she's pretty much entirely on to you, Wash. ]
a_shadow: (Smug)

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I didn't know you could blush over text. How weird.
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[personal profile] dislocked 2016-05-13 03:06 pm (UTC)(link)
What do you hope is left behind when that memory is forgotten?
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[personal profile] goodluckkobra 2016-05-14 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
Have you tried repeatedly hittin' yourself in the head?

[ It will probably do something, right? ]
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[ His face straightens up a little, like he doesn't really like what he's about to say. ]

Sometimes drugs'll help, but I don't think it's worth it. Up to you.

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[personal profile] dualtone 2016-05-15 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
If you find out a way, let me know.
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[personal profile] dualtone 2016-05-20 01:03 pm (UTC)(link)
... Yeah.

[ It's a surprisingly honest answer, given... Fushimi. ]

Doesn't everyone?

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