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[Niko has had a little bit of a confusing week. He didn't expect to be asked along on a diplomatic mission; usually not anything he's good at (in his mind). But he came along, figuring he was there as bodyguard more than anything else.]

[But now he's returned, and he wants to check in.]

Hey, ah.... So I just got back. I had to go with Thán for a mission and now he has a new boyfriend for peace purposes I guess. I am not really sure what happened there. Sort of like an arranged marriage? [He's actually kind of suspicious of this whole-matchmaking thing now. He's always disliked match-making on some level, but there is something deeply unsettling about it here. Just how mandatory and committing it seems.]

[He doesn't hate the match he was given, not at all. But he knows there might be people they're even better suited to.]

Look, I am a little nervous about this big business here. Capitalism is shit, government is shit, and is bad enough when taking advantage of lonely people. But I think we are going to have to be sure to be good to the new guy because we saw what happened the last time we fucked up diplomacy.

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You are a good person.

But that is the thing that lets you know you are still capable of being one. I actually don't mind some of this stuff so much anymore. It's just shit that happens. You do what you must do.

But it still bothers you that it doesn't bother you. That's how my head has been for a very long time. You still have some principles, some integrity.

Hah, well. I'll count that as a good thing as soon as I've got proof my home galaxy isn't just a stretch of cosmic dust in someone's else's telescope.

Until then I'm not sure principles or integrity or being a good person really counts for much.

[Not entirely true, but it's hard not to be a little cynical when you all end up in the same boat anyway....so to speak.]

[Which is how he often feels. Anything he's done- in the long run, he doesn't amount to anything good. He's not near a good person at all.]

We just did a very good job at making ourselves feel terrible. I would be proud if I did not feel so bad.

[Ratchet laughs, a little bit wistfully, unable to keep that bitter edge out.]

Yeah. Guess we did.