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red vs blue: agent texas

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All right, I'm making this fast and dirty. Whoever is around my shadow, you should be able to kill it in just a second.

[ There's a long silence here, as if Tex is having second thoughts about doing this. ]

Look, this is just for the benefit of anyone in my shadow's vicinity, because it's fucking powerful and violent and I don't want it killing anyone.

[ Another pause, a shorter one, and her voice returns, quieter and full of grief. ]

I killed Connie. I didn't know until later what she was doing and I killed her. She left a file full of evidence behind and I found out later that was probably the worst thing I could have done.

I've...never...forgiven myself for that.

[ There's a lot more Tex could confess, but it just takes one, as far as she knows. Hopefully it's good enough. ]

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[ York's chosen to handle his sacrifice more privately, and listens to Tex's confession with a heavy heart. Connie. ]

We tried. To make good with her intel.

[ She knew York would respond to this. She hadn't been sure he would be so generous. ]

That's good of you to say, York. Maybe I should have told you, but I wasn't real sure you'd help me if you knew.

I would have helped you. It just would've hurt more.

[ He sighs, the sound muffled by his helmet. ]

Maybe I should have explained to Carolina instead of just asking her to trust me, and then we might have succeeded. We can drive ourselves crazy with maybes... it went down how it did.

You're right. Of course you're right.

[ But that doesn't make knowing the outcome any easier. ]

Are you holding up okay, in all this?

[ He's being a bit of a hypocrite telling her this, considering how guilty he feels over Wash lately. But it's the right think to say.

His next response takes a moment, and when it comes it's with quiet honesty. ]

Not really. It's attacked everyone I care about, and the only way to kill it.... I'm going to have to talk to Carolina. Say some things I don't think she's ready to hear.

Yeah. I'm sorry, York.

[ Her voice is filled with resignation. What else can they do? ]

It's nothing bad, I guess, just... hard. We're just not at that point yet.

[ There's no other option. ]

Mm-hmm.

[ She sighs. ]

Keep me updated, I guess. I wouldn't have done it this way if I didn't think it was my only option. I think Ryuuzaki is mad I won't tell him more about it over the network.

Yeah, this won't be public. But I'll tell you when the damn thing is dead.

[ He hesitates, speaks cautiously. ] Is it not good enough if you tell him later?

I'm sure it'll be fine. He's just not normally so short with me.

[ It also wouldn't normally bother her that much, but nerves are a bit frayed. ]

I need to get out there now; so do you.

Can't blame me for stalling. Good luck, Tex. Kill yourself dead.

Right back at you.

Glad to know she trusted someone.

Hello Tex.

[ She never expected to be contacted by Washington so casually. She stares at her TAB briefly before responding. ]

I feel like she made a mistake in that, sometimes.

You killed her. Of course she made a mistake. She must have thought all of us were so fucking stupid.

[ Same old Washington—even without his memories of being here before, he contacts her to just try and push her buttons. ]

I killed her before I saw her evidence, Washington. I don't mean she was wrong to trust me. I mean she may have been wrong to trust only me.

Why the hell did she even trust you?

[Why Tex when he had been right there? Except he knows why and he hates himself for it. And he knows why Connie had trusted Texas too. He doesn't have to like it though.]

[ Why is he doing this? Why now?

She answers quietly. ]

She knew the things you know, Washington.

[He swallows. He knows too much. He doesn't like that Tex knows what's in his head.]

She could have come to me.

She made her choices the way she saw fit, Washington. We could sit here and say what she could have done all night long, but it is what it is, now.

You're right, it doesn't matter. Everyone else is dead. What's one more?

Yeah, well...it matters. You know it does and so do I. But we can't change it.

No. It's far too late for that now.

Yeah. It is.

[ Her tone is quiet; she swallows and decides she needs to cut this off. ]

I'm going to go out and fight again now.

Fine. That's what you're good at after all.

"Connie"?

Agent Connecticut

That isn't what I was asking.

I don't want to tell you this way.

Wait until I can come home and I will tell you in person, okay?

Fine

[It's amazing that she wants to tell the entire network this this way -- but not him. If she "didn't want to tell him this way" she should probably have told him first, he thinks.]

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