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The Girl ([personal profile] kidjoy) wrote in [community profile] thisavrou2017-02-03 05:10 pm

voice;

[It’s been a long time since she’s addressed the community. While she’s always sounded annoyed, now there’s a heartache behind the anger. An exhaustion, a defeat.]

Back in the desert we got this story that gets told to every greenie that shows up in the sand. That it don’t matter if you went and got dusted ‘cause your shadow still lives on. [A shaky, sharp breath.] Killjoys never die.

But in this place, it ain’t true. The desert doesn’t believe in death but here there’s no life to begin with. Light’s out is just light’s out. [The anger in her voice picks up, deep and visceral.] All this place gives is empty promise after empty promise, dangles lil’ shiny pieces of hopin’ right in your face then laughs it away again. Just makes everythin’ you were ever told one damn cruel joke.

[There’s a few moments of nothing of but heavy breathing and snotty snuffles before she starts again, voice forcibly more calm.]

So why don’t all you rat kings and thrill seekers and wannabe white suits give me a new story worth believin' in?
warandpeace: (We dιdɴ'т ѕтαrт тнe ғιre)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-04 12:34 pm (UTC)(link)
I've lost a lot, more than once. Even before I came aboard the ship.

It never gets any easier. I don't think any amount of stories will fix that. No story really has an end.

What the long version of the story you tell in the desert?
warandpeace: (нe ѕαιd I wαѕ нιѕ ғrιeɴd)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-05 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
The sting wears off a little at a time, but it always hurts when it happens again.

[Dr. Death is a hell of a name.]

So that's why you cared so much about recognizing the dead. I think there's a lot of sense in that story.
warandpeace: (Aɴd do тнe ɴeхт тнιɴɢ тнαт yoυ ғeel)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-07 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
[If there's anything that could convince him that this little girl is brilliant and "gets it", it's this conversation right here. To other people, it might be tragic. But to him, it says she has more respect for her comrades than half the people he knows.]

You're absolutely right. You know some smart people.
warandpeace: (Aɴd ɴow we мeeт ιɴ αɴ αвαɴdoɴed ѕтυdιo)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-07 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
A long time ago, I lived on a base with a bunch of other soldiers. It was a home for us, and we were like a family. Something happened and I lost most of them. Lost my best friend, too. [In a very complicated, strange to explain way.]

I lost a friend on the ship, and one in the crash. I've always done my best to remember them.

Hopefully your friend just went home and he'll be okay.
warandpeace: (нere'ѕ oɴe yoυ doɴ'т coмproмιѕe)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-07 07:01 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry about that.

[Unfortunately he never knew that Kobra and Bucky were ever close. If he had, he might have mentioned that. That at least he did live a little while he was around.]

But it's true. It never gets easier. I never guessed I was remembering them properly if it did.
warandpeace: (Coυld ɴever cαυѕe мe pαιɴ)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-07 07:17 am (UTC)(link)
I still have some paper if you want to try it.

I remember the art you did on the ship.

I kept the pictures of it. I even have them despite our old communications devices being gone. [He'd told her he'd print them out.]
warandpeace: (тo wαlĸ αloɴɢ тнe loɴely ѕтreeт)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-10 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
They probably wouldn't like that very much. A lot of the buildings probably have their own owners.

Unless you can get someone to pay you to paint. That's a possibility, too. You're pretty good, you could make a decent amount of money for it.
warandpeace: (Yoυ αɴd I ιɴ ѕιleɴce wιтн ɴoтнιɴɢ elѕe)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-16 09:07 am (UTC)(link)
Perhaps not. But if you find yourself willing to take commissions, I think you could do pretty good.

I'm thinking of opening a diner. I could give you a job there. It wouldn't be interesting, but it would be pay.
warandpeace: (I нeαr тнe drυмѕ ecнoιɴɢ тoɴιɢнт)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-18 09:10 am (UTC)(link)
Sweeping or something small. Something easy.

[Which isn't really teaching her a trade like he usually believes in, but she's already very creative and it seems like giving her time to think would be good for her.]
warandpeace: (Aɴd do тнe ɴeхт тнιɴɢ тнαт yoυ ғeel)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-22 12:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I wouldn't ask too much work of you, so you wouldn't have to worry about that.

[He doesn't expect other children to have the work ethic he had as a child. If anything, he would hope that they wouldn't have.]
warandpeace: (How мy poor нeαrт αcнeѕ)

[personal profile] warandpeace 2017-02-25 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
I'll take that as a compliment.

Alright then. I'll give you the address. Hopefully you're not too far away.