thisavrou | [May 19th] Text/Video

[Locked FROM the Lost Light Crew]

[A lot happens in the short time he's been gone, and Tailgate's still wrapping his head around it. Several things are very clear, though, and the first thing Tailgate does when he gets back is angrily rip up that photo and toss it out the garbage chute. It doesn't make him feel good, but it's better than nothing.

In the end, he has so many questions. And he can't ask the people closest to him because he can't handle admitting how terribly, and completely, he had been manipulated. For something like this, it feels better to ask things from complete strangers.]

What do you do when you find out that the person you had spent months with turns out to be an absolute gearstick? No, that's not even the right or strongest word to use. What I should be asking is, what do you do when you found out that someone who told you that they cared about you, and offered to be your conjunx endura, turned out to be using you? What if he separated you from your friends and told you all sorts of terrible lies? What if he told you to prove your love to him by hurting someone else? What kind of person does that?

And how do you recover from it?

[Because he doesn't know. No one had ever paid attention to him the same way Getaway has, and every part of him feels crushed and kicked around. His shame over the matter is great enough that he carefully locks this conversation from his Lost Light crewmates. There's not much reason for it, truthfully, other than to hide the extent of how mind-blowingly stupid he is.]

[Locked TO The Lost Light Crew]

[But of course, there are some mind-blowingly stupid things he's done recently that he can't hide, and Tailgate chooses now to reveal them. This time he locks his post to his Lost Light crewmates, and puts on his bravest face.]

I have a confession to make.

[Instantly, his brave face crumbles.]

I'm... I'm...

I followed Tarn into his world. Yes, I know it was stupid, but while I was there... Um. Well...

Maybe it'll be better to show you.

[He turns his camera so that the purple badge on his chest can be seen. After a moment, he moves the camera back to his face.]

Please don't be angry. I... Tarn said I should, and I just... couldn't say no.

I'm sorry.

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No.

This happened back home.
Which is a relief because being trapped with him here would be awful.

And you just found out?

I went home and came back
that's when I saw what he did
hes a monster i wish I had never met him

I'm sorry.

It's not an easy thing to recover from. People will say it isn't your fault for trusting that person, but it can be hard to believe that. And you can't change it.

All you can do is try to fix whatever happened.

I can't stop thinking about all the things I could have done differently
there are so many things
and he was so nice too
I'm not sure I understand how someone who could say and do such nice things
could turn around and do something so evil

no

maybe that's not true. I think I do understand
a little
people will do anything if they think their reason is good enough

I know.

But it isn't your fault for trusting him. Some people only care about themselves but it isn't always easy to see.

It is my fault that people got hurt because of me
I should own up to that much

but the flip side is that i got super cool new powers now
so that takes the sting out of everything
if I see him ever again i can literally punch him into space

[Wanda understands the feeling several times over, but the Moira changes things. Just because you can punch someone into space or blast them into nothing doesn't mean you should if there's a good chance your enemy will just wake up in the medbay several days later. And she has no idea how synthezoids? robots? administer justice among themselves, or if they do at all.

So her response is much briefer.]

Will that keep the people you want to protect safe?

[Tailgate hasn't had his super Tailgate powers long enough to give any actual thought to what he should do with them. Having lived on a ship full of war veterans for most of his waking, his first instinct is to use it to punch people he doesn't like. What else would you use super strength for?]

the people I want to protect have always been better and protecting themselves than I have
but now I can finally do some protecting all by myself

so I guess the answer to your question is yes
it will

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