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sooo what kind of powers do you guys have? were you born with them or get them in some freak incident or what?

[He pauses as he types out the text, considering if he should be honest about his intentions or not. It's not like he had any sinister plans or anything. It's just a matter of being private. But he doesn't want to sound too weird or shady. This sounds shady doesn't it??

He types and deletes a bunch of times, unhappy with most of the reasons he tries to give for asking the question. This one makes him sound too weak, this one makes him sound too ignorant, this one just makes him sound stupid. Eventually he settles for...well, nothing. He just gives up and hits send.]

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[There was a point where Andrew was feeling the same way about his own power, honestly.]

is it something you discovered early on? or is it like...a common thing where you're from?

It's not common at all where I'm from. In fact, it was unheard of, until I came along.

However, yes, I did discover it early on. It's always been a very...natural thing for me.

[ That's a gentle way of saying that it's always been out of her control. But that's not something she's going to just out and admit without reason. ]

it's the same for me too. powers being unheard of, i mean. i didn't get mine until kind of recently.

[ Now that's something she's never heard of. ]

Really? Were you simply unaware of them, or...did you gain them somehow? I honestly wasn't even aware they were something that could be gained, but I suppose you learn a lot about such things in a place like this.

i got them from some, like, i guess you'd call it an 'incident'? i got too close to something and i don't know i guess it gave me this power

i thought that was more common than being born with them but im starting to learn otherwise here too

How strange. Would you mind if I asked what that power is? I'm still new to the idea of others having powers as well, so I find myself curious about all the different ones that are out there.

yeah thats kind of why im asking too.

im able to move things with my mind. make them float, or whatever. i use it to fly too.

That makes sense.

Really? That sounds quite useful, actually. Have you had an easy time mastering it, or keeping it under control?

[ She only asks because she's curious if anyone else struggles with their abilities in the same ways she does. ]

[Haha...control issues.]

well, my cousin and friend had a lot of trouble at first. i did too but i learned faster than them. i control it pretty well now.

[It's his anger he can't control. But he's not going to go bringing that up on the network to someone he doesn't know.]

Ah, you weren't the only one to receive it? I take it that means you were all in the same place at the same time.

But that's good. Control is important. --I'm sorry, I realize these questions are getting personal. I don't mean to make you uncomfortable. But I do have one more, if it's all right. You don't have to answer if you don't want to--I understand. But...do your emotions affect your powers? And your level of control over them?

[ Going right for it, now. She hopes she's not pushing him for answers he doesn't want to give--especially when the whole thing started out with them talking about her powers. ]

[It's a good thing this conversation is taking place over text, otherwise she would see him completely stiffen up at the question. It's not one he particularly wants to answer. But he's curious why she's asking - she brought it up for a reason, right?

His reply comes quite a while later with the video now set to private.]

you're asking for a reason, right? is it that way for you?

[He wants to learn more, he wants to control his anger - but opening up to a stranger isn't something he wants to do. Maybe if she's having the same problem he will, but he has to know for sure before he goes and says anything.]

[ She's worried when she doesn't get an answer for a while. Worried that she poked a nerve--she knows it would have poked one with her if the situation were reversed. But she's okay if he doesn't answer, she'd even said so, she just...figured he'd tell her that he's not comfortable doing so.

She's just about to accept that he's not texting back when she gets the message. Taking a quick note that the conversation has now been made private--a good thing--there's some hesitation as she reads over the words a few times. It's not something she wants to openly admit to, and she's only done it in a few cases with people in similar conditions.

However, the way he's responded gives her the idea that she's not alone here and that he does, in fact, deal with the same thing. But he wants to hear it from her, first. ]

I suppose I was rather transparent with my questions, wasn't I? Yes, it's that way for me. I struggle a great deal with control, myself, particularly when it comes to my powers being connected to my emotions.

Am I correct in assuming that it works that way for you, as well?

[ It's a bit more bold than she'd normally be, but at this point, she feels she may as well speak frankly about the whole thing. If they're going to share secrets, they might as well just get it out there. ]

[Hearing - or reading rather - her admit it makes him feel slightly less apprehensive about admitting it himself, but he's still apprehensive all the same. There's a small bit of comfort in talking to someone with the same issue as himself. Like finding a few people with powers like his own. It makes him feel a little less lonely despite not knowing the people he's been talking to.

Trusting people is dangerous, though, which is why his reply takes a few minutes.]

sometimes

[Most times.]

mostly when i get angry

[ Her nerves pick back up when she doesn't get a reply for a few minutes. Maybe she's wrong, maybe she shouldn't have admitted to her issues so easily--

But then she gets the reply and finds herself relaxing slightly. So she was right. And she's not the only one here with the issue. There's...something sort of comforting to that, because everyone else she's run into seems so...in control. ]

Anger is a strong emotion. In some more than others. That could be why.

For me, my biggest problem is fear. My powers always manifest their worst and most unwieldy when I'm afraid.

[ Of course, fear isn't her only problematic emotion, but it's certainly shown itself to be the most dangerous one, and she thinks sharing that might help here. ]

[While anger is the primary cause for Andrew's powers getting out of hand he definitely understands it happening out of fear too. Boy does he understand.]

like when you're backed into a corner, right?

That's certainly one way, yes. But also when I'm afraid that I might hurt someone.

It's something of a vicious cycle for me--when I'm around others, I'm constantly worried I might accidentally harm them, which fuels the fear, increasing the chances that I very well may harm someone.

[ This is possibly the most brutally honest she's been about her powers. Certainly he most she's been when it comes to her fears and those triggering...incidents. ]

[Having hurt - killed someone he loved because of his anger this hits a little too close to home.]

does practicing help you control better? like using your powers more and more?

if so that might be something to look into

I honestly don't know.

I spent my life taught to keep it hidden, to not use it. I...had only just gained freedom from that when I wound up here, which, admittedly, set me back to being afraid I'd hurt someone.

But it... It might be a possibility. I know I certainly felt better when I was allowing myself to use my powers as I wished. But I've never thought of it as a way to gain better control...

[ She's intrigued though. What if it ended up effective? She could not worry about hiding such a big part of herself and at the same time, not worry about hurting anyone because of herself!

It's not an idea she's about to leap ahead with and try right away, but it's certainly something to look into, as he'd said. ]

[Andrew honestly can't comprehend not using his powers. Even with the added fear of losing control.]

i don't know how other powers work but it's...kind of like a muscle? the more you use it the more control you get over it. like learning to walk or something. i think the same could be said about most powers -- they're part of you, you know?

[Of course he easily accepts his power as something that's as much a part of him as an arm or a leg, despite all the trouble that has come since gaining it.]

i used mine literally every day for every little thing until i got better. i mean obviously i started small but, i don't know, i really think it's better than not doing anything. then it will always be out of your control.

[ There's no reply for a few minutes while Elsa reads and rereads his text. He makes some good points, ones that actually have her considering...giving this way of living a try. Considering how long she's lived not using her powers (on purpose, anyway) and how it's had no effect whatsoever, perhaps it's time to try something new... ]

That all makes a lot of sense. I would never have considered it, but hearing it put that way... Maybe you're right.

I think I'll give it a try. I'll use my powers where I see an opportunity, perhaps even set aside some time in the day simply for practising with them. It feels so much better to be able to use them without fear, and I'd very much like to not constantly be afraid of accidentally harming someone.

Thank you. If this new way of doing things works, you've done something huge for me.

[Andrew wasn't expecting to be of any help to anyone else. Especially since this power thing is relatively new to him in comparison to everyone else he's met on this ship. Despite his prowess with his power he was starting to feel inexperienced and little.]

trust me, it makes life a whole lot easier

[No it doesn't.]

let me know how it works out. um if you want

I can imagine it does.

[ She can also see it complicating things, especially considering she...doesn't actually know how to undo her magic, but. She feels inspired nonetheless. ]

If you'd care to know, I'll certainly share. Good luck with your own powers and finding out about those of others.

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