McDonell Benedict "Kazuhira (和平)" Miller (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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thisavrou2017-10-24 03:59 pm
warandpeace) wrote in thisavrou2017-10-24 03:59 pm
VIDEO
[Kaz almost never does a video post, but today is an exception. The view opens up with him positioning the camera on a level surface (a stool) and he backs away from the view to settle on his own seat. Behind him, the wall of the stage in the Hall of Music, and he has his two commissioned speakers and the special guitar gifted to him by Eggsy a full two years ago settled in his arms loosely, though his hands aren't in position yet. He has a half-full bottle of something he's already drunk too much of on one of the speakers. Hence why this is a video post, and he's willing to do this in front of people and trying to provoke some help.]
I was hoping that a friend of mine would turn up late. No such luck.
[Kaz has been feeling his friendships slimming again, through whichever misfortune is at fault, and he's very guilty of keeping people close to his chest. A constant sense of loss that he can never quite shake, because the world always feels a less for not having them around. One less rich accent to complain about mild inconveniences in a humorous, dismissive way. One less person to fuss over the quality of fabric or the quality of character. Losses that leave gaping flaws that Miller is constantly aware of.]
I realized that I didn't have the chance to tell him about one of my favorite musicians. I don't know that he would have enjoyed his music, but I think he would appreciate the man's undefeatable outlook on life.
So this is for Dorian. And I need some back-up from anyone who knows this battle song of my culture.
[Nyx probably would have appreciated it, too. For people who know it, it's probably obvious what he's about to do when he starts the Stomp Stomp Clap. Stomp Stomp Clap.] Buddy you're a boy make a big noise. Playin' in the street gonna be a big man some day...
[He'll go to the very end, thank you. And while he's no Freddy Mercury and could use the help singing, even if he's drunk he'll rock that guitar solo at the end.]
I was hoping that a friend of mine would turn up late. No such luck.
[Kaz has been feeling his friendships slimming again, through whichever misfortune is at fault, and he's very guilty of keeping people close to his chest. A constant sense of loss that he can never quite shake, because the world always feels a less for not having them around. One less rich accent to complain about mild inconveniences in a humorous, dismissive way. One less person to fuss over the quality of fabric or the quality of character. Losses that leave gaping flaws that Miller is constantly aware of.]
I realized that I didn't have the chance to tell him about one of my favorite musicians. I don't know that he would have enjoyed his music, but I think he would appreciate the man's undefeatable outlook on life.
So this is for Dorian. And I need some back-up from anyone who knows this battle song of my culture.
[Nyx probably would have appreciated it, too. For people who know it, it's probably obvious what he's about to do when he starts the Stomp Stomp Clap. Stomp Stomp Clap.] Buddy you're a boy make a big noise. Playin' in the street gonna be a big man some day...
[He'll go to the very end, thank you. And while he's no Freddy Mercury and could use the help singing, even if he's drunk he'll rock that guitar solo at the end.]
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[He has nothing to worry about. He'll be blond well into his fifties. His mother's genes afforded him some luck.]
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[He's drunk and his filters are off. But even then there's some shyness there.]
He doesn't say much. He's more of a shower than a talker.
[There's a lot he can say here. That he thinks Ahab is straight, that Kaz has been an exception to the rule, an attraction based in emotion. That their lives have been intertwined. Instead?] He's a decade older than me, anyway.
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But it's also rare occurrence enough that she's going to try to milk out as much out of him as possible. ]
Ah. So man of an action? Aren't you a lucky guy then. And if he's really that much older than you it must mean he knows a trick or two at this point, or what do you think?
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[Kaz puffs out his cheeks as he exhales. And looks behind him, as if Venom Snake might have managed to stealth up and watch him embarrass the both of them.]
[Then he swivels back in the seat, back towards J and the camera view.]
Um.
[Mr. "Can Talk Endlessly" seems to be at a loss for words.]
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She leans closer the camera along him and brings hand next to her mouth and whispers:]
It'll be secret, I promise.
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[That's a nice, safe analysis that won't get him into trouble. And here he was wondering why people kept thinking that he was a forty-year-old virgin.]