text; (locked from nathan drake)

[tearsinajar]

[ It's been two weeks since she's woken up in the Complex, the effects of her cryostasis wearing off, finally. The effects of her death and resurging, that's another story. Her throat and lungs aren't feeling so raw but the latter still feels rough. At least she no longer feels like she's going to choke with each breath she takes. And the hacking up blood has stopped. On the other hand, the nightmares of the exact moment don't come as often but they're there.

They're always there. ]

I was always under the impression that when you died, you stayed dead. There were no second chances. Maybe I haven't come to terms with it. I've come close to death's door too often but never like that.

Has anyone ever...?

[ If anyone here has died and returned, wouldn't asking bring back unpleasant memories? Elena's aware of that, unfortunately there's only been one other person whom she's been able to talk to who can relate.

This isn't something she can talk to Nate about because of how sensitive a topic it is between them still, and that's why she's locked the post from him. She needs to know if there are others.

Plus there's just one more thing... ]

My wedding ring also seems to be missing... It's plain silver and has an engraving on the inside. It's been missing since I woke up in the Complex.

If it's shown up anywhere then please, I'd appreciate a heads up.


( ooc; the ring is gone forever, and although the post is locked from older!nate, it's still free game for anyone who knows him to bring up the post/topic/any conversation to him. c: )

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[el_paso]

Had a rough intro to Sav. What about you?

[tearsinajar]

My intro involved my bony elbows and my husband's throat. But if you're referring to how this happened? It's not clear. It happened offworld. We think my suit tore and I breathed in the toxic air.

Choked to death.

[el_paso]

Almost. You're still here.

[tearsinajar]

I was gone for two weeks. I wouldn't call that "almost". But I'm here now.

[el_paso]

You are.

Now, are you gonna bellyache about it or tell Fate or what the fuck ever to "fuck off" and move forward? Because if you start dwelling too much on the past, you'll miss out on what's important right now. You're alive.

[tearsinajar]

I'm alive and I got someone like you whom I've never met and don't even know to tell me to nut up or shut up.

[ Which she can truly appreciate as almost everyone's been quiet and listening to whatever she's had to say about what had happened. They've sat with her, listened, didn't say much because maybe they figured it was better for her to talk about it and 'bellyache'. Not that Elena doesn't appreciate the silent offering of support— she does, really. There just don't seem to be many who can relate and thus they don't understand. ]

[el_paso]

Tell me to fuck off, too, if you don't like it.

[ Maybe he's misunderstanding the point she's driving at. The notion that she'd appreciate his blunt honesty doesn't occur to him, but it'll annoy him if he leaves things the way they are now. I must be going soft. ]

Look. You're gonna be the only one who can judge how right you feel about this. And maybe you'll never feel right about it- that's fine. Death is generally a shitty, one way trip for everyone. Dwelling on it, reliving it, that won't change how things went down.

You got any family here?

[tearsinajar]

I'm too tired to argue with anyone right now. Maybe later down the road I'll come back to it. For now, you're fine. I'll take it as it is.

I know that. It's just who I am, and it's part of my job - to dwell on and relive something. I know it's going to take time to get over but is not talking about it going to make it any better?

[ Probably not. ]

Yeah. My husband and my brother-in-law. A good friend, too, is also here who is considered family.

You got anyone here?

[el_paso]

Talking, in my experience, only gets you so far. Getting back on your feet, and a routine under your belt? That helps. Normality, such as we can find around this shithole, helps.

[ Look he's died a whole lot, okay. ]

Handful of old friends who are about half as old as I remember. Can't say I expected to find them, either.

[tearsinajar]

Then here's hoping I can find that. Until everything goes back to normal.

[ Or as NORMAL as it can after she's died and returned back to life. ]

Why is that? And why only half as old as you remember? Is it a time thing?

[el_paso]

Are things ever normal around here?

Yeah. A time thing. It's complicated.