thisavrou | video; after the savrii invite the moirans to their home

[it's been a while since rey has shown her face on the network. this will be the first time she's used the TAB to do so, and she's unceremoniously stuck it to bb-9's... face. the droid beeps softly, letting rey know that the video is recording. the scavenger is sitting cross-legged with her back to a wall, her staff laid across her knees and her pack beside her. she does not look pleased. in fact, she is frowning very deeply. she isn't very comfortable actually talking to people, but this is important, so she's making the effort.]

Wasn't there a point to all this?

[she pauses, knowing she should probably be more specific.]

The planets, the months of travel, everything— [her voice has been getting louder, so she stops for a breath. she has to calm herself down, pushing flyaway hairs from her face.]

We were supposed to be able to go home. We wasted a fracking year on that moon—if we'd gotten here a year sooner, would this all have been the same? We all saw the corpses on the way here. They died for this—some of us died for this. Coming to this hub, finding this working Ingress... that was supposed to be the end. But now we're just going to go to another planet, another unknown, and what? Live there? Or will there be another promise made, another contract to sign? Another delay to our return?

That's shit. We all know it's shit.

[rey sighs, closing her eyes and not speaking for a few more moments. she's tired, and just wants to go back to jakku. she just wants to go back to her old life, since what was supposed to be her new life seems nigh impossible now. she reaches forward to shut off the TAB, mumbling one more sentence under her breath:]

Why wasn't it the end?

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[ andyr finds it incredible, sometimes, how the people on this crew are so unaccustomed to unfair deals, fallen through plans, and tragedy. is he sad for the dead, yes, and does he think it sucks that they can't leave yet, yes, but is he going to be surprised by it at all? no. ]

Because body counts don't buy resolution. [ for all the people that've died trying to free his own world, that seems like something painfully obvious to andyr by now. ] They don't buy anything, they just are.

[rey has only really been let down once in her adult life, and it was a hard let-down. she's so used to meticulously caring for only herself, that she expects things to go as planned--when she plans them. none of this had been planned. there had been other people. and, just like the first time she'd let other people into her life, she's been disappointed. her minute social life is the bane of her existence.]

They don't.

[of course they don't. she isn't stupid. rey has seen her fair share of corpses--people died on jakku all the time. but they were all doing their job. these people had just been looking for a way home. but maybe it's better to think that they died before finding out they couldn't return to where-ever they wanted to go. she should think about this more rationally, but it's so hard to when her future as a jedi has basically been ripped away from her.]

They just deserved--I don't know. Closure, maybe. We deserve closure. Not just another open-ended promise.

A lot of people deserve a lot of things. Means absolutely nothing about whether they'll get it or not.

[ like a knife in that face, there's a lot of people who deserve that. or, you know, basic human rights, but that's another one you don't see even often, as far as andyr believes. ]

We just keep going, and try to find something that sucks a little less than what we currently have.

Something that sucks a little less sounds about right. [her whole life encapsulated in one strange phrase how sad is that]

Generally always the idea with life, right? [ find something less sucky? or true to. ]