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[It's not the same as before where he'd woken up with a light breeze on his skin causing his too-long hair to dance across his forehead, and the sweet, dry smell of fruit trees. No, it's blue light and too much wind. There's nothing normal about that. The communication device strapped to his hand is cold. Bucky's used to not remembering things, but the long hall and unfamiliar faces tell him something's off. There's a million explanations going through his mind and none of them make any sense except one and he doesn't want to think about that.

Bucky goes through the motions. Steels himself while he's checked out. Signs the contract. Lets someone take him to his room and then walks the halls. Now back in his room, he clicks on the MID. His face is half-hidden and voice low. He wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't necessary. He's combed every inch of this goddamn ship and he can't find Steve anywhere.]

I'm looking for someone. Tall. Blond. Loves America.

[It's risky to put it out there. He doesn't know these people and trust isn't something he gives easily. But he needs to find someone he remembers. Someone from Wonderland. Someone from back home. Everything is muddled and this place looks like something his mind has made up.]

His name's Steve.

[There's a brief pause.]

If someone could tell me what the hell's going on here, I'd appreciate it.

[The feed cuts off.]

[ooc: this bucky is a crau from another game. he thinks that he never left his previous game world and that it is during an 'event'. i'm so sorry if he confuses anyone.]

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No. It doesn't work that way.

[There's something about secrets that Bucky can't get around - whoever they belong to gets to keep them until they're ready to share.]

If you want me to know, then you can tell me. [He exhales slowly.] When you're ready.

[Hell, they'd be proud of him back in Wonderland.]

And I'm sorry.

Ready? Like, what, I have to go have quiet time 'til I feel like sharing with the group?

[ the things that'd happened to andyr in the Houses, with the exception of a small few things, aren't secrets he's ever guarded. more than that - he'd tried to scream them at any person who passed by. just trying to find someone who would listen.

by the time he hit the first year, hope that anyone would care was gone, and what was left was just spite. if you won't sympathize, at least he can do his best to make everyone's stomach turn. at the very least, he wouldn't let them close their eyes and ignore it, as if this great boon for society didn't come with any kind of sick price. not with him screaming it at the top of his lungs. ]

Didn't wanna say because I've got shit to do, and it's not gonna change anything for you one way or another. [ because if they made him, he's staying here. especially with steve giving him all the rationalizations to calm with. this clone isn't andyr's probably and he's not making room on the Get Out Of Dodge caravan for him. andyr's hands a busy packing stuff up into a backpack as he explains, and the camera view is jerky, a flash of his face, the ceiling, the wall, the floor, as he grabs things and stuffs them in. ] But fine, if you wanna know - I'm genetic corporate blueprints for six and a half years worth of line after line or genetically engineered clones. People with my genetic code, plus some tweaks here and there. Taller, different colored eyes, maybe wings, maybe flippers, maybe a metal fucking arm.

[ the last part pointed. this one said he's bucky, he looks like bucky, andyr's guessing he knows about the metal arm like bucky. ] And each new line gets iterations - one after another after another, exactly the same. Mass production, like toasters. Sometimes they keep memories, but most of the time it's whatever gets installed at birth.

[ and that's why you and other you are hella fucking suspicious, and why andyr's going to go grab his friends, steal a jet, and get the hell off this thing. the rest he's done his best to ignore, to trust the explanations he was given. but this is just too fucking far. ]

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[Bucky doesn't respond for a while. He lets it sit. Thinks it over. Talks with Steve and his other self, tries to figure out what's going on.]

You know what I mean. Share. Don't share. I don't need to know.

[Though now that he's watched and knows the reason for Andyr's treatment of him he can understand why he'd not want another person sharing his face around. Bucky watches Andyr's movements, assumes by the flashes and location of the MID that he's probably packing - leaving, because of Bucky.]

Don't go. You don't trust me, think I'm a clone. [Made not born.] Nothing I say can change what you think.

I'll go. When the ship stops, I'll leave.

[ it takes a moment for andyr to reply. he gets what he's trying to do, and something in his regard of his softens for the sentiment (he doesn't know anything, he couldn't, none of them here do), but new-bucky isn't getting it. ]

you leaving doesn't change what this place is or the fact you exist.

[ that this place produces iterations. it won't make andyr any more comfortable with him here than elsewhere. god, he might even actually have a twitch of worry for the iteration being off on it's own and confused. hapsburg always tried to get him to care about his clones, so they'd end up as leverage. well, congrats, whatever corporation is running this ship. you did it. ]

what you should do is grab steve and the other bucky, and get them somewhere safe. off this thing.

if you wanna come with me, you can. but steve's not listening to me, so good luck with that.

he won't listen to me.

[Bucky isn't this Steve's Bucky, the one that was here first is. He gets the feeling, very distinctly, that if it came down to choosing, the other would take priority. He's not sure how he feels about that, but it's hard to be upset when there's a Steve back in Wonderland that would do the same for him.]

i'm not the bucky he knows. i might come with you. where are you going?

[ there's something sad in that, knowing this bucky has the same memories of the man, the same fierce adoration and commitment, but his existence is made a moot point simply by there being another. how jealous had v5 of miray been of v7 when he'd told her about alva's future with her? being the same person, in mind, hardly makes you receptive of the same benefits. or sorrows. ]

anywhere that's not here. somewhere we can figure out where we are and how they got us here so we can use it to get back home. if the tech exists here, it'll exist somewhere else too. that's just how progress works.

you know how to fly a space ship?

no.

[Bucky's experience wasn't limited when it came to Earth crafts, but a space ship? Yeah, he's not sure if that's the same. He's no defeatist, though, so he's willing to give it a shot.]

point me in the right direction and i'll see if i can. when are you leaving?

soon as i can get my people together and moving. meet me at the flight deck in 20.

[ that should be enough time. he knows where alva is, and collecting val shouldn't be much of a problem. they all know to move their asses when the houses are involved. there's a moment of pause, before a second transmission is sent through. ]

i'm trusting you right now because i know the other bucky iteration's a good man and i'm hoping that part's in you too. betray that, and you're not just hurting me, but you're hurting the people i call family too.

if that happens, so fucking help me, i'll rip that metal bat fused onto your shoulder straight off your body and shove it so far up your ass if comes out your mouth if it's the last thing i do. got it?

[Bucky’s head is a mess. He doesn’t know where he is or what’s going on, but he does know one thing. He can’t go anywhere without Steve and a few others. If any say they can’t go, he won’t either.]

yeah, I get all that. I’m not going to do anything to hurt or betray you and yours.
But if you’re going tonight, I can’t come.

[He can’t leave without Steve. Not if there’s a chance that this is his best friend.]

[ he figures it's something to do with steve. andyr doesn't want steve staying here either, nor does he want to leave him, but. house family comes first, always. ]

can't risk waiting. sorry.
good luck.

tell steve i said im sorry

at least talk to him and tell him face to face that you're sorry.

[It might seem shitty of him, but Bucky thinks talking to Steve will help.]

maybe

[ which means no. he can't risk having to fight steve over it. ]

[That feels like a no but Bucky's not surprised. Steve's stubborn and if he gets going, well.. Andyr probably knows by now.]

think about it?

i will

[ he already knows he won't change his mind, but he'll dwell on it. maybe hate himself for it for the rest of his life. but all in all, it's what's safe for the lot of them, and that makes it the final decision. ]

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