[ miles buries his face in his hands to muffle whatever sounds are escaping him, and beneath all the upset he's embarrassed for breaking down like this around clark. caducus primary was one thing, but this... ]

I can't get away from it. [ he sounds less frantic now, but only by a few hairs, his breath still short. ] I'm trying. It's like -- it's like they're waiting for me around every corner. I keep hoping I won't see them again, but -- Murka's stupid damned head keeps making short jokes and I don't think he even realizes it.

[ hallucinating all over the place? you bet. ]