[Because although he didn't quite get it at first, he understands now that he's done it himself. He knows what it's like to feel as though the world doesn't need him, that everyone would just be better off if he stayed dead. To fail so thoroughly that the only course of action is to remove oneself from the equation, because it's for the best.
It still hurts, to know that she didn't want to be found--that she allowed him to believe he got her killed (because she must have known how he'd take it--but Jack thinks he's too glad to have her back to keep dwelling on it. They both did what they had to do and all they can do is move forward from here.]
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[Because although he didn't quite get it at first, he understands now that he's done it himself. He knows what it's like to feel as though the world doesn't need him, that everyone would just be better off if he stayed dead. To fail so thoroughly that the only course of action is to remove oneself from the equation, because it's for the best.
It still hurts, to know that she didn't want to be found--that she allowed him to believe he got her killed (because she must have known how he'd take it--but Jack thinks he's too glad to have her back to keep dwelling on it. They both did what they had to do and all they can do is move forward from here.]
I think I understand.