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Cassandra ([personal profile] deal) wrote in [community profile] thisavrou2016-04-25 10:54 pm

video;

[Cassandra glances over before focusing on her wind up music box, and begins slowly turning the handle. Music starts to play, a tune that may be familiar to people from Earth. She's not doing this to play music for everyone though, so she stops after a handful of seconds, looking thoughtful.]

It's funny. You hate home until you've been gone from it long enough, and then you get homesick and home is all you can think about. No matter how shitty it is, you forget about all of the bad things and only care about the people you left behind.

[The music box is picked up and clinched in her hand.]

Do you think it's possible to get a message back to someone? Has anyone tried communicating outside the ship yet? If things like this - [She drops the music box in her hand on the table she's sitting at.] can come through the Ingress to us, we have to be able to send things back through it.
ryuuzaki: (L Change the World)

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[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-26 07:00 am (UTC)(link)
Cassandra. [He sounds a little tired, but whether it's real tiredness or perpetual world-weariness is open to interpretation.] Are you sure that would be a good idea?
ryuuzaki: (hmm - serious)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-26 07:24 am (UTC)(link)
Mm. It's possible they don't know you're gone.

It would help if we could talk to someone who has been home and come back to the Moira -- if that's been known to happen. Sometimes, in these "mass abduction via quantum uncertainty scenarios" [(those air quotes are audible)], time won't pass for you in your original universe.

It's also possible that some of them might turn up here.
ryuuzaki: (fingertip nip - arty)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-26 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
That would depend on what I was sending and where I was sending it to.

There are people who I'd rather see here than where I saw them last... primarily people I worked with. We never received messages from people who disappeared, but I haven't seen any of those people here, so it may be a matter of physics that's over all of our heads. It may be that they went home to their original universes, or were pulled into another one like this... but if that were the case, would we have noticed they were gone? I've always thought that the most unsettling hypothesis was the one in which they just evaporated.

[He leaves off the fact that he doesn't want to do anything to tip off Van Rijn's people to any of this; he suspects that if he did, the population of the Moira, and of the places it stops, could be in bigger trouble than they realize. Sending something back doesn't seem prudent.]
ryuuzaki: (reflection - window)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-26 08:11 am (UTC)(link)
Homesickness is a normal human experience, even if the home itself wasn't ideal.

[By which he means: sometimes he misses the Tranquility Comms Hub, sometimes he misses Darcy and Bail, or his private rooms, or the way the doors would slide open at his approach. This foolish sentimental tic is involuntary, annoying, and occasionally humiliating: how could he possibly miss that place? The intermittent tug at his emotions is receding, but not as quickly as he'd like. Leia and Jane's presence suggests that the two people who have been most in his thoughts could turn up one day, but it also suggests that it may not be the people he knew, just their simulacrums.

He's fairly sure he'd tell Cassandra if she were being an idiot... or maybe they both are, it's hard to say.]


I'd like to think I'd notice something like that, though. Wouldn't you? Or maybe there are infinite parallel universes filled with versions of all of us, in better or worse situations.

[Maybe even one where he got the zombies.]
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ryuuzaki: (fingertip nip - arty)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-26 08:45 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, I might.

[He says it airily, but "yes," more or less. He's learned to make a point of holding his tongue simply because he no longer has the clout to casually offend potential allies and have them remain his allies. Not restraining himself now and then would be bad strategy, but he has no illusions that he's ever likely to become the kindest and gentlest of acquaintances.

His voice develops a faint note of mock-alarm.]


Do you hit hard?
ryuuzaki: (hmm - serious)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-27 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
It would probably be better if I didn't.

[It's always better not to get hit. But his moment of levity falls away, and he lets out a little huff of a thoughtful sigh before he continues.]

What would you want to send back if you could? Just a message...? A gift?

[He wonders what exactly he would send to Watari, apart from a message to make preparations for both of them to go into hiding immediately upon his return. And even that is based on a hunch, and having several years to mull over the situation at his leisure.]
ryuuzaki: (knees)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-27 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
[Something in her voice sounds a little off.]

Is there some way in which that might be a bad thing?

[It makes him wonder: if there were no risk of tracking, would he want to send a message to Darcy or Bail to let them know that he was somewhere else? Would he have wanted to receive such a message from someone like Nathan Petrelli? Would there be any point... would it have unintended consequences for the recipients? Hope, or just bitterness that they'd been left there? Maybe they'd believe it was a trick; more than one party had seemed to be out to trick them.]
ryuuzaki: (fingertip nip - arty)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-27 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
[He shrugs, an action expressing an attitude that carries over to his voice.]

Would that necessarily be negative in and of itself? You might be a ghost they'd want to hear from.

On the other hand, they might envy your change in situation.
ryuuzaki: (pessimistic)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-27 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe you're right. The others will move on... or they should. I really can't speak to how well an individual might adapt, but contact could interfere with their ability to do so.

[That might have been a little tactless, but it's also supporting her resolution.]

I was responsible for a small team, in my last situation. Mostly people with technical capabilities: we worked on the network. In the absence of information, they might assume that something terrible has happened to me, when that really isn't the case... but that's assuming they're aware I'm gone at all.

And to be honest, we'd gotten used to people disappearing.
ryuuzaki: (headtilt)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-27 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sure they would.

[And it's better if the people he left behind do move on without him... but he has a strong impression that anyone who was in the corridors in the month before he was pulled through the Ingress went through something similar to his own ordeal, which may mean that a few of them are irreparably stressed, which may impact their chances of long-term survival. Even here, it's taken him weeks to gain back the weight and most of his strength, which he could barely afford to lose to begin with.

It's the mark of a shift in him, he knows, that he still wonders and cares.]


I think it's extremely likely that the Ingress isn't the only object in any universe that can do the things it does, and it may not have any bearing on what happens to us once we're here. Do we have any evidence that it's more than a gate that attracts things from various universes? If not, it isn't as if we've been glued to this one.
ryuuzaki: (knees)

[switching to private until further notice]

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-28 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
It's true.

[He heaves a deep sigh, then switches to a private setting for the rest of the conversation.]

When I was pulled onto the other ship, I spent months refusing to get involved in anything, thinking I could go home at any time. Their problems weren't my problems, and so on.

It was a mistake. Well, it wasn't a mistake not to want to get killed there: that's just common sense. But I was involved whether or not I wanted to be.
ryuuzaki: (fingertip nip - arty)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-28 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe.

[His tone suggests that he agrees with her.]

It isn't as if the choice of being stranded on some planet without any hope of going home is much of a choice. They have us over a barrel. But it's still better than some of the alternatives, and some of the places people are coming from.

It's impossible to live with this many people, day in and day out, and remain totally separate and uninvolved. I'm not sure it's even desirable.

[That may be a confession or a truism: he's not sure.]
ryuuzaki: (smile - delighted)

[personal profile] ryuuzaki 2016-04-28 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
[He almost laughs, then comes out sounding a little rueful. He prefers face to face communications for himself, and trackable electronic ones for everyone else who isn't talking about things he wants to keep secret.]

It wasn't, but I'm not opposed to it.

How do you feel about coffee? I'd be surprised if it had been common anymore, when you were home.

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